- Monday, 21 September 2015 -

Why I Don't Wear Makeup

Hello my lovelies! Growing up a teenager riddled with acne wasn't easy, even more so when you find yourself lacking in sisters to confide in over what concealer to use when breakouts start becoming the bane of your life. My mother didn't wear makeup and with no close cousins to learn from, I took it upon myself and timidly picked up my first jar of Dream Matte Mousse and slathered it over my face in the avid hope of hiding this hideous affliction. My acne was a regular cause for concern as children and grown adults alike would frequently question me of my (non-existent) chicken pox, resulting in my voice cracking and tears forming in my eyes as I told them "it's just my face".

From the tender age of twelve I began experimenting with makeup; every morning awakening at the crack of dawn to begin a meticulous ritual that would rid me of any bumps or blotches. With my newfound skills, I would craft myself a new face, a better face, free from my own self-loathing - this was more than a vanity thing, this was about finding the courage to love myself. I felt powerful spreading my lipstick on in the mornings, ready to take on a new day, my eyeliner so sharp it could cut anyone standing in my way.

Secondary school was like a battleground and I wore my makeup like warpaint. Regardless of the inner war that was waging inside me as I was bullied throughout school, my mascara didn't budge an inch. I was more beautiful than them even if I was breaking inside. Looking back, there was rarely a time where you'd see me without makeup and I find that sad. As the years rolled on and I grew older, I began to realise that people shouldn't love you based on your makeup, that the people you surround yourself with should love you for being you.

So, I took the mask off. It wasn't a speedy process, as more days I'd feel more self conscience than others, but slowly and surely, I simply began to not give a fuck. Understandably, many of you reading this can't imagine going a day without makeup as its part of your routine, it gives you a confidence boost etc and that's okay, but that's not me anymore. I don't wear it going to the shops, I don't wear it to university or work. I feel free and raw and open and I LOVE how I can scratch the shit out of my eyes without the concern of messing up my mascara. For the longest time I was wearing makeup to impress others and satisfy the demon inside me who was picking me apart.

Don't get me wrong though, I still love nothing more than giving myself a good pamper session and slapping on as many layers as possible in preparation for a night out, because I'm only human, right? I still buy makeup regularly for events or special occasions but generally, if you meet me down the street, I will have literally woken up like this (winking eye emoji). Yes, I do savour those precious extra minutes I have in bed more where I could be goin' all MUA on my ass, but for the most part, I'm just happy to finally feel content in my own skin.

  1. And you are still the prettiest girl I know! <3 ^__^ This is an awesome post lovely! xx

  2. Such a lovely honest post! I loved reading this. I'd don't wear makeup either and it's such an empowering feeling. =^-^=

    Sam | Momentarily Dreaming

  3. I'm the same, I don't ware make up unless I am going to some kind of special event. I always feel like i ahave to make exscuses for some reason.

  4. This is a great post, but i'm sorry you had such a bad time growing up!
    We could all learn a lot about not judging others and being comfortable in our own skins <3

    A Great Perhaps

  5. This is a beautiful post. I am glad to hear that you feel much better about yourself. I know that I went through that same struggle myself, and finally around 17 years old I started to feel much better in my own skin. I'm similar that I love dolling myself up, but I can definitely walk around without makeup on and know my friends love me for me.

    Peace & Love // Celestralite

  6. My friends always wore makeup in middle school-- but my Father never let me. I'm somewhat thankful for that because I was able to realize this at a younger age. I mean, I still really wanted to! And when I was 16 I began wearing a little bit of foundation, but nothing too crazy.
    However, now I'm pretty self-concious about going out without makeup on, as you said! Depends on my moods haha!

    This is a great post, I know plenty of people who are in the same boat and it's great to just catch a little extra Zzz's in the morning rather than spend time painting on a mask!


  7. What an interesting post! Loved it <3 It's great to be confident in your own skin <3 xx


  8. I can relate to your story completely! Girls can be ruthless in school, and suffering from acne as a teenager, I feel your pain. On the bright side, you probably wouldn't be the person you are today if you didn't go through all those rough patches growing up and I'm sure that makes you very grateful for everything. Makeup is not for everyone. I think it does make you feel special and should be reserved for special occasions before it loses its effects. :)
    This is one of my favourite posts to read! I look forward to more posts like this on your blog.
    Aria | Girl in a Whimsical Land

  9. Super post Claire. It's nice to see another person who doesn't feel the pressure to wear makeup too. Sure we wear it from time-to-time but like you if I'm wearing make up its really just because I fancied doing something that day, but I do it for me.

    I went through the same things in school, and its only in my twenties that I feel fine without it but now make up is really just a few times a month thing for me. I love the bare face.

    Happy you're happy :)

  10. I love this post. I was the exact same as a teenager, however I didn't craft a better face. I didn't have the skills and made my bad skin even more prominent and obvious. I would clog my pores with all kinds of foundations and concealers. I wish someone had told me at the time! I need to start giving my skin a few days off now I'm older and 'wiser', it sounds really freeing! :)

    Roxie x
    The Beautiful Bluebird

  11. Such a lovely post to read, Claire! I wear make-up only about 3 days a week and when I do, it's generally just only eyeliner! I enjoy getting myself dolled up for events but I've finally become happy with my own face and it was really encouraging to read your story too. I'm glad you're happy, you're beautiful!

    Kimberley xx

  12. Great post! Good for you, I love your attitude towards not caring :)
    Wish I had the confidence :P

    Zoe x
    Beauty Pie

  13. I wish I could go make-up free! My makeup has toned down a lot to what it was when I was younger (and I'm not as orange!). You have inspired me to feel better in my own skin though. Lovely post.

    Kirsty xo | hakunamascara.blogspot.co.uk

  14. Love this Claire! I relate all too well to the teenage acne situation - so many mean people who just have no clue because they're fortunate enough not to have it!
    So glad you feel happy to be able to walk down the street without make up on. Recently I have, too - although I still get the 'you look tired' comments when i go without mascara...

    N xo


  15. I'm so glad you wrote this post! As a teenager myself I experience people around me coming into school with a full face of makeup and hair done like they are going to a Photoshoot. And eventually it kind of rubs off on you and you feel you can't walk around with a naked face. And once you start wearing make up (although I'm pretty bad at applying it!) and enjoying the confidence it gives you, there is pretty much no going back! Currently I'm stuck in this hole where I have to spend a good half an hour applying my face before I feel ready to face the world and I really hate that. It's got to a point where I can't even look in the mirror without my face on. I wish I would be as brave as you!

  16. I LOVE this post!! Think we need more people who write about makeup this way, especially in the blogging world.
    Although we all love makeup and creating more looks. We need to remember that it isn't all about wearing makeup to look beautiful. I didn't wear much makeup in my teens years and between 18-20 I wore it almost everyday. Now I'm a little more relaxed, I'll wear makeup when I'm at work & when I want to experiment..but I don't worry if I leave the house without abit of concealer or mascara on, as long as I feel comfortable.
    And the same to you, if you feel comfortable then it shouldn't matter about anyone else and my, you're gorgeous!!

    Sarah xo || See The Stars

  17. This is a wonderful post, so happy for you that you managed to step away from all that bullshit and find piece with yourself. I wish I could do the same, it frustrates me that I can't leave the house without makeup. You're a great role model, especially to any younger people reading x


  18. This makes me really wish I didn't wear as much makeup as I do!

    Be | lovefrombe

  19. Really amazing post! I wore makeup all the time and would never go out without any on. But now I just need to let my skin breath for once. It's so easy in the morning too with having to make sure my makeup is on point.


  20. I'm the same as you, never had anyone around to show me the make up ropes. No cousins no sisters and no mother either! I tried foundation at 13 but Im so ridiculously pale that I was orange and the first day I wore it to school I got called orange and I vowwed never to wear make up again, And I didnt,
    Beside eyeliner and brow make up(the essentials in my case).. I did buy some foundation when i was 21 (im 22 now) but i decided its till not for me and im not ballsy enough to wear it.

    Love being make up free, doesn't take as long to get ready in the AM ;)

    www.laurcaud.co.uk / Lifestyle Blog

  21. I really loved reading this post. Weirdly I was the other way around, I never wore make up when I was younger and as I was older I fell in love with it, but as an enjoyment not a barrier. Lovely post, got yourself a follower here!

    Musings & More

  22. Oh my gosh, I love this because I felt like I was the only one! I love make-up and if I'm going out for the evening or to a special event or if I need to look professional I wear it but for everyday I don't put a single thing on, especially if I'm just going to be home or out and about in general - this actually made me feel a lot better as there have been so many times when I've looked around and thought, "Hmmm, maybe I should make more of an effort?" so this was amazing to read, thank you Claire! - Tasha

  23. Another awesome post, I love your point of view and your motivations, I think you are doing the right thing for yourself!